You can say it a million times if you like. I don't currently have access to the book so your page number tells me sweet fa.
An extract from that page that, I think, reflects the
greatest emphasis Kate places on the effect of Madeleine's condition on her (Kate!)
It's hard to remember how I managed when I look back and picture myself buttering ... toast with one hand (I am very bad at going without food), holding Madeleine in the other arm and never being able to answer the phone or even go to the toilet unaccompanied.
The rest of that page describes Kate's distress at witnessing Madeleine's distress, and particularly being unable to do anything to alleviate it.
Later on in the book, Kate describes a glorious, breakthrough moment when the McCanns, on holiday, put Madeleine down to sleep one night and she slept right through: the signal of the end of Madeleine's childhood colic.
I'm at a loss to understand what anyone is reading in to it remotely relevant to events of PdL.